Simplicities of Life

Don’t tell me you love me.
Tell me life is insufferable and you want to die
With me by your side.

Don’t tell me I’m attractive.
Tell me you would give me your heart
On a golden platter.

Don’t tell me you miss me.
Tell me you would rather burn alive
Than to be without me for another moment.

Don’t tell me you want a relationship with me.
Tell me you want our bodies, our souls
To be bound together for eternity.

Don’t tell me my body is sexy.
Tell me my spine only exists so it can
Bend and Break for you.

About the writer, Ari

I’ve been writing on this blog for a while and gained a bit of a following. I love and appreciate all of you for coming back a few times a week to reading my writing.
I decided to put together a short list of things about myself, so you guys can get to know me better. I hope you guys enjoy this list and I will be publishing pieces this week!

  • I prefer to be called Ari. It is short for my first name and got it from one of my first friends from college.
  • I am 19 and I’m a Scorpio.
  • I am African-American and I take pride in my culture and my people.
  • I am a Sophomore at the University of Michigan and I’m an English major (No, I don’t want to be an English teacher).
  • I am from Michigan in the United States.
  • I’ve been writing for over a decade now.
  • I love writing and it’s the only thing I can see myself doing for the rest of my life. 
  • Writing comes naturally to me. I can create a piece and upload it within 10 to 20 minutes. 
  • I prefer to write stories or poems with a dark tone because everyone writes about love, life and positive experiences, but never include or touch on the darker times. I wanted to be different and just write creepy, scary, disturbing shit.
  • My favorite type of food is Japanese food.
  • My favorite pieces I have published are The Green light and Nineteen.
  • I have a cat named Lucky and a dog named Rusty.
  • I love reading novels and the current books I’m reading are The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath, The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao by Junot Díaz, Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro and Delta of Venus by Anaïs Nin.
  • My favorite app is Pinterest and Tumblr (yes, I still actively use those apps).
  • I love tattoos and have 4 of them at the moment.
  • Besides writing, my hobbies include reading, watching scary videos, movies and tv shows, drinking wine, shopping online and spending my money on useless things.
  • I’m still shocked that so many of you guys enjoy the shit that comes out of my head. I always thought of myself as an average writer.

I hope you guys enjoyed this little post and got to know me a bit more. I will post soon!

-Ari, the Paramour

Being Ari

To be Ari is to be soft spoken.

To be naked and admire my natural shape and curves.

To always have a necklace around my tan neck.

To smell like shea butter and lilies.

To have fresh pink roses on my desk.

To need aftercare and comfort after sex.

To own several floral and fruity perfumes.

To be love and be loved unconditionally.

To buy and read classic novels.

To speak fluent Latin.

To be hyper-feminine.

To be soft, in every way possible.

Who am I?

After being on this blog, you are probably wondering what kind of fucked up individual would write these kinds of things and experience these kinds of experiences. Well, it’s me, paramour, or just Ari. Ari is a shorthand for my real name and I just prefer it for my professional work. But who am I?

I can be anything you can imagine.

I can be sweet, I can be mean.

I can be helpful, I can be useless.

I can be the greatest friend or lover you ever had, I can ruin your life.

I have the ability to transform myself into any kind of person at any moment with ease. It is a part of who I am. 

But my heart isn’t a part of that. I am a kind and loving person by nature and I am beautiful on the inside and out. But I can easily dismiss all of that and be the coldest person ever, even if it hurts me or my image.

I know how to be cruel and use people’s weaknesses against them and I won’t regret it. I can’t regret it because I don’t regret my decisions or actions because it was planned. Everything I do, every move I make is planned and prepared beforehand. 

I, also, know how to erase it all and lay in my sorrow. I know how to let my emotions surround me and bring me under, bring me towards my death. I will allow myself to waste away and destroy myself if it means I get to feel my own pain. 

I know how to be the person who will give you their last dime, last shirt and the last piece of my heart if it means you will be happy. I will be the shoulder you need in your hardest time and I will let you use my own heart for warmth. I will allow myself to take on your emotions if it means you will be at peace within. 

I can love everyone, but I can hate everyone too.

To put it simply, I am everything and nothing at the same time

And I’m becoming content with that.